Hi fellow bloggers
i will be away for a few days, but i just wanted to say thanks to those who have left comments and make my blog worth reading. But also to those who pop in from time to time to have a quiet read and hopefully take away something from the posts and comments.
blossom xx
A Blossom of pinkness for blossom. .
Monday, 31 January 2011
Saturday, 29 January 2011
Protector
I wrote a post about mentorship and i said i would write a post about a Protector.
I will start by saying that i think a Protector would take the place of the Master whilst at an event or where a sub would need to be accompanied. Also it would have to be someone that a Master and/or sub would have complete trust in. To me this is an extremely important position especially if play is involved afterall a Master is putting the life of His sub in their hands.
But what does a sub do who doesnt have a Dom or Master they can call upon? Does the same amount of protection apply whether its online or real time? How far should a Protector protect? Also what if there is distance between them what actions can a Protector implement to protect the sub? or would there be any point in protecting someone who does not live in the same area, do they involve others in this?
I suppose there are lots of actions/steps to undertake this important role. Would the Protector have limitations, what if a sub doesnt agree to these, does the Protector just abandon the sub?
I realise i have actually asked more questions than given any answers or opinions with regard to actions that could be taken to protect a sub, e.g. presence, open and consistent communication, phone numbers etc.
I would really be interested in hearing from Doms or sub who have found themselves in this role in the past or are currently protecting a sub or being protected and what actions have been put in place.
blossom x
I will start by saying that i think a Protector would take the place of the Master whilst at an event or where a sub would need to be accompanied. Also it would have to be someone that a Master and/or sub would have complete trust in. To me this is an extremely important position especially if play is involved afterall a Master is putting the life of His sub in their hands.
But what does a sub do who doesnt have a Dom or Master they can call upon? Does the same amount of protection apply whether its online or real time? How far should a Protector protect? Also what if there is distance between them what actions can a Protector implement to protect the sub? or would there be any point in protecting someone who does not live in the same area, do they involve others in this?
I suppose there are lots of actions/steps to undertake this important role. Would the Protector have limitations, what if a sub doesnt agree to these, does the Protector just abandon the sub?
I realise i have actually asked more questions than given any answers or opinions with regard to actions that could be taken to protect a sub, e.g. presence, open and consistent communication, phone numbers etc.
I would really be interested in hearing from Doms or sub who have found themselves in this role in the past or are currently protecting a sub or being protected and what actions have been put in place.
blossom x
Thursday, 27 January 2011
Corsets
Oh girls she makes it look so easy. To have a waist like that and the beauty of being locked into it!!
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Sunday, 23 January 2011
What if...
What if
i cant move on
What if
i lose my submissiveness
What if
im not strong enough to carry on with this lifestyle
What if
i just give up
What if
im unable to give my all to Another
What if
i start to doubt my ability in my submission
What if
i never have those feelings ever again
What if
these doubts stay with me
What if
just what if ....
i cant move on
What if
i lose my submissiveness
What if
im not strong enough to carry on with this lifestyle
What if
i just give up
What if
im unable to give my all to Another
What if
i start to doubt my ability in my submission
What if
i never have those feelings ever again
What if
these doubts stay with me
What if
just what if ....
Beautiful Morning
I woke up early this morning, looked out at the cover of crisp white ice that is lining the footpaths, i went out to my back garden in my pjs and watched my breathe coming out heating the air as i exhaled, and i thought to myself what a beautiful morning.
Hope everyone has a beautiful morning where ever you are.
blossom x
Hope everyone has a beautiful morning where ever you are.
blossom x
Thursday, 20 January 2011
First attempt at story
It was suggested to me by my Dom friend to try and write a piece of fiction, well i said to Him i dont think i could do anything like that, but He coaxed me into trying it at least, so here is my attempt, i hope you wont be too critical of it..lol. Thank you Sir for motivating me.
FIRST STEPS…
Katie sat on the tube, as usual in her own world, thinking of the conversation she had with her Master the previous night, she like to do this after each time they spoke, going over what they had talked about, picking out parts of their conversation which appealed to her, which gave her the greatest joy. She got off the tube and walked to the hotel, each step quickening as she had to pick up her instructions at exactly 1.30 pm, no sooner no later and she was scared she would be late. Finally she got to the hotel lobby, she looked at her watch it was 1.15 pm so she thought “ oh good, in time”. There was a bit of a queue at the desk but that shouldn’t take too long to shorten. But no, it was now after 1.25 pm, panic starting to set in now, “what do I do now, its not my fault that there is a problem at the desk”, she thought to herself. But He was very specific, no sooner, no later. She couldn’t take the chance and at exactly 1.30 pm she interrupted the irate customer and apologized to them but it was very urgent that she needed to pick up an envelope.
She turned to the receptionist and gave her name and asked if an envelope had been left for her, the receptionist looked at her post and handed the envelope to her. Katie thanked them both and turned and walked a chair in a quiet corner of the hotel lobby. She took a few moments to calm herself and a few deep breathes, she wondered to herself if He had witnessed her dilemma at the desk and how she handled that.
She looked down at the small cream envelope clasped in her hands, nerves surging throughout her whole being, she heard herself asking “what on earth am i doing”, and gave a nervous smile to herself. This is what she wanted, she knew that, this would be the first time that she would see Him for real. Turning it over in her hands to open it, she hesitated, nervous to think what He had written and asked her to complete prior to their meeting. Katie looked around her through the people in the lobby to see if she could catch a glimpse of Him in the crowd, hoping to see Him, to know she wasn’t alone at this moment, but there was no sign of Him, she felt a little deflated as she had hoped that He would have witnessed her being confident, something she didn’t feel she was at the best of times.
Taking out the small card, the first thing she noticed was his penmanship, the flow of the written words and then she glanced through the instructions before she read them more carefully, a smile came upon her mouth as He had addressed her as ‘lil pet’ before each instruction. Those two little words calmed her immediately and brought a sense of ownership to her in her little corner.
His instructions:
lil pet go to the ladies toilet and take a picture of yourself in the items that I asked you to wear on your route to the hotel, then to take another picture once you have remove your panties and send these pictures to Me. You are then to go back and sit in the lobby for 15 minutes with your legs slightly apart so that anyone sitting facing you and decides to look can have a glorious look at your smooth pussy.
lil pet then take the lift to the 3rd floor and go to room 331, when you arrive in the room you are to undress, shower, put your leather collar on the bed, but leave the door of the room ajar, return to the bed and kneel at the side of it, put on your blindfold and wait until Master arrives.
The nerves that Katie felt reading this, the things He has asked her to do made her feel so out of her comfort zone, gave her the feeling of vunerability of being partially naked whilst walking and sitting among people, the vunerabilty of being completely naked in a room with the door left open, the uneasiness that she felt at that particular request, as it could mean that anyone passing could walk into the room.
But she wanted it, she craved it, she needed it, she wanted Him to want her, she wanted to do whatever pleased Him, she wanted to give him complete control and trust of her very being.
Katie sat for a few minutes more, composed herself, put the card back into the envelope along with the room key that was inside as well and walked to the ladies toilet to start His demands.
Katie ensured that the toilets where empty and undressed in the cubicle, only opening the door to allow her to take the photo on her phone in the large mirror facing the cubicle, firstly with her matching white lacey bra and panties, suspenders and black silk stockings that had a red corset braiding effect on the top of the stocking. Then quickly she removed her panties to take the other photo requested, nerves making her stumble in her black crocodile patent heels. Hands shaking, fumbling over the phone to take the last picture, all the time hoping that no one would walk in on her. After she finished she quickly closed the door to the toilet, there she sat down, gathering her nerves, and send the photos to her Master. As she was putting her clothes back on and putting her panties into her bag her phone made the usual phone ring, a tone that was assigned to Him, so she knew when she heard it, it was to be answered immediately.
She answered immediately “Hello Sir”
He replied “My lil pet done well for her first task, you shall be rewarded for this”
Katie smiling down the phone answered “thank you Sir”
He finished the conversation with “continue” and hung up.
She felt ecstatic hearing from Him and how pleased He was with her.
She came out of cubicle and freshened herself up in the mirror, gathered her bags and walked into the lobby, strangely feeling more confident, “i am going to do this, i am going to do this” she repeated over and over to herself.
Katie found a seat in the middle of the lobby, picking a seat that no one was sitting at, hoping that no one would sit there, she put her bags down beside her and by the time she looked up, an elderly gentleman and she presumed his wife sat facing her. “Oh my” she said to herself. She thought “would He know if I completed this”, but no, she knew she had to continue, otherwise what was the point of this whole thing. So she pulled her skirt up to above her knees and opened her legs apart slightly. She looked at her watch and it said 2.00 pm, the next 15 minutes were the longest that she had spent, it was as if this was never going to end. She knew the man noticed that she had no panties on, as he was pulling at his trousers as he was re-arranging his cock to a more comfortable position, she tried not to look at him and concentrate on a magazine she had picked up from the table at the side of the sofa.
Finally the 15 minutes had ended, she put the magazine down and picked her bags up, stood up and re-arranged her skirt, bent down to pick up her bags knowing that the outline of the suspenders would show through her skirt as it tighten when she bent over. Then she looked at the man as she went to walk away, he smiled up at her and she noticed a bigger bulge in his trousers as she walked away. She smiled quietly to herself and walked to the elevator and pressed the button to take her to the 3rd floor.
FIRST STEPS…
Katie sat on the tube, as usual in her own world, thinking of the conversation she had with her Master the previous night, she like to do this after each time they spoke, going over what they had talked about, picking out parts of their conversation which appealed to her, which gave her the greatest joy. She got off the tube and walked to the hotel, each step quickening as she had to pick up her instructions at exactly 1.30 pm, no sooner no later and she was scared she would be late. Finally she got to the hotel lobby, she looked at her watch it was 1.15 pm so she thought “ oh good, in time”. There was a bit of a queue at the desk but that shouldn’t take too long to shorten. But no, it was now after 1.25 pm, panic starting to set in now, “what do I do now, its not my fault that there is a problem at the desk”, she thought to herself. But He was very specific, no sooner, no later. She couldn’t take the chance and at exactly 1.30 pm she interrupted the irate customer and apologized to them but it was very urgent that she needed to pick up an envelope.
She turned to the receptionist and gave her name and asked if an envelope had been left for her, the receptionist looked at her post and handed the envelope to her. Katie thanked them both and turned and walked a chair in a quiet corner of the hotel lobby. She took a few moments to calm herself and a few deep breathes, she wondered to herself if He had witnessed her dilemma at the desk and how she handled that.
She looked down at the small cream envelope clasped in her hands, nerves surging throughout her whole being, she heard herself asking “what on earth am i doing”, and gave a nervous smile to herself. This is what she wanted, she knew that, this would be the first time that she would see Him for real. Turning it over in her hands to open it, she hesitated, nervous to think what He had written and asked her to complete prior to their meeting. Katie looked around her through the people in the lobby to see if she could catch a glimpse of Him in the crowd, hoping to see Him, to know she wasn’t alone at this moment, but there was no sign of Him, she felt a little deflated as she had hoped that He would have witnessed her being confident, something she didn’t feel she was at the best of times.
Taking out the small card, the first thing she noticed was his penmanship, the flow of the written words and then she glanced through the instructions before she read them more carefully, a smile came upon her mouth as He had addressed her as ‘lil pet’ before each instruction. Those two little words calmed her immediately and brought a sense of ownership to her in her little corner.
His instructions:
lil pet go to the ladies toilet and take a picture of yourself in the items that I asked you to wear on your route to the hotel, then to take another picture once you have remove your panties and send these pictures to Me. You are then to go back and sit in the lobby for 15 minutes with your legs slightly apart so that anyone sitting facing you and decides to look can have a glorious look at your smooth pussy.
lil pet then take the lift to the 3rd floor and go to room 331, when you arrive in the room you are to undress, shower, put your leather collar on the bed, but leave the door of the room ajar, return to the bed and kneel at the side of it, put on your blindfold and wait until Master arrives.
The nerves that Katie felt reading this, the things He has asked her to do made her feel so out of her comfort zone, gave her the feeling of vunerability of being partially naked whilst walking and sitting among people, the vunerabilty of being completely naked in a room with the door left open, the uneasiness that she felt at that particular request, as it could mean that anyone passing could walk into the room.
But she wanted it, she craved it, she needed it, she wanted Him to want her, she wanted to do whatever pleased Him, she wanted to give him complete control and trust of her very being.
Katie sat for a few minutes more, composed herself, put the card back into the envelope along with the room key that was inside as well and walked to the ladies toilet to start His demands.
Katie ensured that the toilets where empty and undressed in the cubicle, only opening the door to allow her to take the photo on her phone in the large mirror facing the cubicle, firstly with her matching white lacey bra and panties, suspenders and black silk stockings that had a red corset braiding effect on the top of the stocking. Then quickly she removed her panties to take the other photo requested, nerves making her stumble in her black crocodile patent heels. Hands shaking, fumbling over the phone to take the last picture, all the time hoping that no one would walk in on her. After she finished she quickly closed the door to the toilet, there she sat down, gathering her nerves, and send the photos to her Master. As she was putting her clothes back on and putting her panties into her bag her phone made the usual phone ring, a tone that was assigned to Him, so she knew when she heard it, it was to be answered immediately.
She answered immediately “Hello Sir”
He replied “My lil pet done well for her first task, you shall be rewarded for this”
Katie smiling down the phone answered “thank you Sir”
He finished the conversation with “continue” and hung up.
She felt ecstatic hearing from Him and how pleased He was with her.
She came out of cubicle and freshened herself up in the mirror, gathered her bags and walked into the lobby, strangely feeling more confident, “i am going to do this, i am going to do this” she repeated over and over to herself.
Katie found a seat in the middle of the lobby, picking a seat that no one was sitting at, hoping that no one would sit there, she put her bags down beside her and by the time she looked up, an elderly gentleman and she presumed his wife sat facing her. “Oh my” she said to herself. She thought “would He know if I completed this”, but no, she knew she had to continue, otherwise what was the point of this whole thing. So she pulled her skirt up to above her knees and opened her legs apart slightly. She looked at her watch and it said 2.00 pm, the next 15 minutes were the longest that she had spent, it was as if this was never going to end. She knew the man noticed that she had no panties on, as he was pulling at his trousers as he was re-arranging his cock to a more comfortable position, she tried not to look at him and concentrate on a magazine she had picked up from the table at the side of the sofa.
Finally the 15 minutes had ended, she put the magazine down and picked her bags up, stood up and re-arranged her skirt, bent down to pick up her bags knowing that the outline of the suspenders would show through her skirt as it tighten when she bent over. Then she looked at the man as she went to walk away, he smiled up at her and she noticed a bigger bulge in his trousers as she walked away. She smiled quietly to herself and walked to the elevator and pressed the button to take her to the 3rd floor.
Tuesday, 18 January 2011
Mentorship
i had a conversation with a Dom about Mentorship and Protector and what that means to individual Doms and submissives. He gave me his interpretation of what these meant to Him but that it might be idea to find out what it means to other Doms and subs.
I think i will talk about mentorship in the first instance and will address Protector at another time.
What does mentorship mean to Y/you? To me it would mean that the Dom would need to have knowledge and experience of the lifestyle. To be trustworthy and approachable. Having the time to guide, support and advise the submissive on a regualar basis, until such time as B/both feel that it is no longer required. For the Dom not to take advantage of the submissive. I also think that it would help if the Dom and submissive have the basis of a friendship, it would make it much easier for the submissive to freely express herself and the Dom wouldnt have to worry about trying to drag everything out of the submissive.
Again i suppose there are different levels of mentorship and i would imagine it could run into other roles that a Dom may have, e.g. Trainor where there would be more physical guidance needed.
Does a mentor enforce punishment or restriction of any kind? I dont think so, i would imagine that this would come under the auspice of the Trainor, but i could be wrong.
i would be interested in what O/others thought about what mentorship means to them and their expectations from receiving it.
blossom
I think i will talk about mentorship in the first instance and will address Protector at another time.
What does mentorship mean to Y/you? To me it would mean that the Dom would need to have knowledge and experience of the lifestyle. To be trustworthy and approachable. Having the time to guide, support and advise the submissive on a regualar basis, until such time as B/both feel that it is no longer required. For the Dom not to take advantage of the submissive. I also think that it would help if the Dom and submissive have the basis of a friendship, it would make it much easier for the submissive to freely express herself and the Dom wouldnt have to worry about trying to drag everything out of the submissive.
Again i suppose there are different levels of mentorship and i would imagine it could run into other roles that a Dom may have, e.g. Trainor where there would be more physical guidance needed.
Does a mentor enforce punishment or restriction of any kind? I dont think so, i would imagine that this would come under the auspice of the Trainor, but i could be wrong.
i would be interested in what O/others thought about what mentorship means to them and their expectations from receiving it.
blossom
Friday, 14 January 2011
Senses
i smell His scent
Through the air it surrounds me
i hear His movements
As He walks around me
i taste His sex
As He feeds his stiffness to me
i feel His touch
As His strong hands envelope me
But i cannot see Him
As His blindfold darkens me
Through the air it surrounds me
i hear His movements
As He walks around me
i taste His sex
As He feeds his stiffness to me
i feel His touch
As His strong hands envelope me
But i cannot see Him
As His blindfold darkens me
Wednesday, 12 January 2011
Orgasm Denial or Chasity Belts
Orgasm denial is used sometimes in BDSM as a punishment to a sub, but also as part of play. i myself have had this applied to me in a previous relationship, in fact i would say that the majority of submissives have had this applied to them on one or more occasion. I must admit i loved it, loved the intensity that i received from the lack of touch, loved the thoughts going through my head, knowing that i couldnt touch myself and when showering only to clean and rinse myself. i love the thought of someone having that control over me, teasing me during my denial, through my frustrations, wicked smile here, and oh the joy when one is finally given the permission to indulge onself and the joy that the other person gets hearing your release and enjoyment you receive.
But i came across a site showing Chasity Belts and i must admit i think they are so erotic looking, both for female and males. i wonder how all those centuries ago how maidens wore those to be kept from pleasuring themselves as well as straying. My preference would be the orgasim denial as i dont think i could wear a chasity belt, but thats not to say i wouldn't have to do as told!!!!
Here are some pics.
Womens Belts
Love the idea of the thigh bands which can be attached to the belt.
But i came across a site showing Chasity Belts and i must admit i think they are so erotic looking, both for female and males. i wonder how all those centuries ago how maidens wore those to be kept from pleasuring themselves as well as straying. My preference would be the orgasim denial as i dont think i could wear a chasity belt, but thats not to say i wouldn't have to do as told!!!!
Here are some pics.
Womens Belts
Love the idea of the thigh bands which can be attached to the belt.
Tuesday, 11 January 2011
New Name
Finally i have given myself the name of 'blossom' no more 'lonely sub' i am moving forward.
Sunday, 9 January 2011
Quotes
Quotes that i like relating to BDSM:
"The eye of the master will do more work than both his hands." - Benjamin Franklin
"It's the submissives that show to others what type of Dom owns them." - Anonymous
"No kind of sensation is keener and more active than pain it's impressions are unmistakable." - Marquis De Sade
"The very instant that I saw you, did my heart fly to Your service; there resides, To make me slave to it; and for Your sake..." - William Shakespeare
"no woman truly knows what she is, until she has worn a collar." -Unknown
I love the William Shakespeare quote and the one underneath it regarding wearing of a collar which i have had the privledge to wear in the past, there is nothing more delicious than wearing the collar of a Master, the way it makes you feel, the protection it gives you, so many emotions come from wearing such a special thing.
ls
"The eye of the master will do more work than both his hands." - Benjamin Franklin
"It's the submissives that show to others what type of Dom owns them." - Anonymous
"No kind of sensation is keener and more active than pain it's impressions are unmistakable." - Marquis De Sade
"The very instant that I saw you, did my heart fly to Your service; there resides, To make me slave to it; and for Your sake..." - William Shakespeare
"no woman truly knows what she is, until she has worn a collar." -Unknown
I love the William Shakespeare quote and the one underneath it regarding wearing of a collar which i have had the privledge to wear in the past, there is nothing more delicious than wearing the collar of a Master, the way it makes you feel, the protection it gives you, so many emotions come from wearing such a special thing.
ls
Saturday, 8 January 2011
Change
i have decided to call my blog 'Beautiful Submission', an act that shows devotion to the One that chooses you, well it does in my eyes. It was previous called 'Lonely Sub' but that was too sad a title for me as i move forward with my life. i will also be changing my name from the name that was given to me so long ago, but i havent decided what that will be so in the meantime i will be using 'ls'.
i am glad that i took my friends advice and started this blog it will help me focus on my return to something that i crave deeply and wish to experience again.
ls
i am glad that i took my friends advice and started this blog it will help me focus on my return to something that i crave deeply and wish to experience again.
ls
Thursday, 6 January 2011
Thoughts
i have decided to change the name of my blog to something else, what i dont yet know but something better than what it is called now, its how i was feeling at the time when i started thinking about writing a blog but i want a new start so i think its time i changed the name of the blog to fit in with that. i dont want to be known as a sad sub...lol.
i also wanted to say a big thank you to a friend who has helped me through this difficult time, and it still continuing to do so. He has given me a lot of support and has listened to me rambling on and on. i have received great and sensible advice from Him and for that i thank You. You have great patience.
ls
i also wanted to say a big thank you to a friend who has helped me through this difficult time, and it still continuing to do so. He has given me a lot of support and has listened to me rambling on and on. i have received great and sensible advice from Him and for that i thank You. You have great patience.
ls
Tuesday, 4 January 2011
Monday, 3 January 2011
Poem
WHEN WE TWO PARTED
by: George Gordon (Lord) Byron (1788-1824)
by: George Gordon (Lord) Byron (1788-1824)
HEN we two parted - In silence and tears,
- Half broken-hearted
- To sever for years,
- Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
- Colder thy kiss;
- Truly that hour foretold
- Sorrow to this.
- The dew of the morning
- Sunk chill on my brow--
- It felt like the warning
- Of what I feel now.
- Thy vows are all broken,
- And light is thy fame:
- I hear thy name spoken,
- And share in its shame.
- They name thee before me,
- A knell to mine ear;
- A shudder comes o'er me--
- Why wert thou so dear?
- They know not I knew thee,
- Who knew thee too well:
- Lond, long shall I rue thee,
- Too deeply to tell.
- I secret we met--
- I silence I grieve,
- That thy heart could forget,
- Thy spirit deceive.
- If I should meet thee
- After long years,
- How should I greet thee?
- With silence and tears.
Feelings
As i stood under the shower this morning this is how i have been feeling:
Feeling abandoned
Feeling used
Feeling lost
Feeling alone
How can one learn to trust ever again!!!!
Feeling abandoned
Feeling used
Feeling lost
Feeling alone
How can one learn to trust ever again!!!!
Sunday, 2 January 2011
Wonders
i have had time to ponder over what i actually done or achieved throughout my relationship and i have come to the conclusion that i have achieved not that much. When i read through others blogs and see what they have experienced and goals they have achieved i havent experienced half of that, which makes me sad because given the time i spent with him i actually done nothing, what a waste of my time, i could have achieved and experienced so so much more. Is it too late for me now??? probably given i dont have anyone to take me under their wing and pass on to me the benefit of their experience, oh how much i crave for that.
Maybe its not goo to dwell too much on the past, hindsight is a great thing as they say, just look forward to the future and try to make things happen for myself. How though can a sub keep herself submissive if she doesnt have anyone to give herself to? Maybe little things like reading the blogs, researching more on the internet, ill try that for a little while for now. But how i would love to be a Daddys lil girl again.
ls
Maybe its not goo to dwell too much on the past, hindsight is a great thing as they say, just look forward to the future and try to make things happen for myself. How though can a sub keep herself submissive if she doesnt have anyone to give herself to? Maybe little things like reading the blogs, researching more on the internet, ill try that for a little while for now. But how i would love to be a Daddys lil girl again.
ls
Saturday, 1 January 2011
Fresh Start
I am hoping to start afresh this year after ending a long distance relationship of quite a few years. I dont know if this will work but a friend told me it may help me in the long run if i focused on doing something for myself. How do you though when you have been so use to having someone control your very being for such a long time. I miss that badly and i want to feel that again, but with who and when i just dont know. So for the moment i will use this thread to allow me to express my feelings for the time being.
Anyhow Happy New year to all who happen to cross this blog.
lonely sub
Anyhow Happy New year to all who happen to cross this blog.
lonely sub
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