Monday, 23 July 2012
(mine wasnt as good as this one)
i dont have a lot of experience with pain, something that was never on my radar when it came to my submission, my biggest thrill from my previous relationship was complete control over me, but no matter how much i pushed for this it didnt really happen for me, all one sided on my part...but we learn by these mistakes.
But since i have been with Master He has taught this girl to embrace pain, to embrace the delicious feeling one gets from marking oneself...smiles...never ever in a million years did i think that i would ever do this, would ever get to experience subspace through this, but i have with Him...He is absolutely wonderful and wicked with it...laughs
He has been introducing little things for me to try which involves pain, small steps and i really do admire any slave that can accept the pain that is inflicted on them from their Master's, true masochists...well i am just starting on that road and anything that i have done to date is mild compared to what they do but its major to me..and Master is very proud of His girl for this...smiles.
So i just wanted to mention a little task i had to do yesterday which involved thumb tacks, cardboard and inserting it into the cups of my bra....well you can imagine how nervous i was to wear something like this, but i have been craving some type of pain and Master thought it would be a good way to get this without drawing much attention to myself. So off i set and made it up.
it was like a scene out of blue peter (a childrens programme over this side of the schuck!!! which shows you how to make things...lol) got my cardboard and thumb tacks, i used toothpaste cardboard as it was the right length and put in around 10 thumb tacks in each piece and inserted it into my bra....boy did they pinch when going it and moving them around so it felt comfortable, if you can say that with pins digging into ones breasts...laughs
i thought i would only last a little while wearing this but actually i kept them in for over 3 hours (smug look on face...lol) and during that time i put pressure onto my breasts either through leaning on them or folding my arms so i could press them deeper into the breast tissue or just use my hands and push against them...looking at the little row of pins through my shirt and bra looked so sexy too...smiles..that feeling of pinching and hurting anytime i moved was amazing and i felt it constantly for the whole time...that brought my submission to the fore and i loved every moment of it.
the pain also of removing them and pulling some of the tacks out of the breast was quite painful too but such a beautiful row of little pin points were left in my breasts, Master loved seeing these and was very proud of His girl that she was wearing His mark...He insists she wears His mark as often as she can...and this girl loves to wear it also....so i was quite proud of those little marks and they are still there even if they are faint now...but i love them and so does Master...smiles
Master is so taken with them that He says they will be a regular occurance along with something else He has me do!!!! as well as have me make a bigger one which will cover more of the breast....delicious!!!...what a lucky slave i am...smiles.
Monday, 16 July 2012
i want to feel His lips upon mine
i want to feel His tongue tease mine
i want to feel His teeth bite into my shoulder
i want to feel His hands upon my breasts
i want to feel His breath upon my neck
i want to feel His naked skin against mine
i want to feel my fingers trace over the whole of His body
i want to feel His hardness push against me
i want to feel the urgency of His passion in His kiss
i want to feel His legs inter-twinning with mine
i want to feel Him entering me
i want to feel the thrusting of His body against me
i want to feel Him take my all
i want, oh how do i want
Sunday, 15 July 2012
Sunday, 8 July 2012
This girl is very happy to let her readers know that she has a very special and wonderful Master in her life...smiles. She is very proud to say that she is now His Owned slut slave. W/we have been T/together for quite a few wonderful months now and every day is a joy being with Him. He has shown this girl what it means to be truly submissive to Him and she continues to learn everyday with Him. She has experienced so much with Him in the short time W/we have been T/together including her first experience of subspace, in fact there have been a lot of first times for this girl with Him. He has taken control over this girl's life and she has happily surrendered it to Him. He inspires this girl to be His perfect slave and she strives to give Him what He wants and needs. This girl never thought she would find anyone ever again but how wrong was she, she has finally begun her journey with the most perfect Man she has ever met, He is Loving, Inspirational, Trusting, Honest, Compassionate, Firm, Fair and so much more...smiles...this girls life is pure bliss.
hi not too sure if many of my readers would be aware of this but there is a virus that is due to attack pc's on Monday so i saw this article and thought it may be of interest to you, you can check if your pc is infected and it tells you what website to go to to fix it....smiles
Saturday, 7 July 2012
A crotch rope is a bondage technique which involves the tying of rope around a woman's waist which is then passed between the labia to apply painful or pleasurable pressure to the female genitals. Crotch rope most commonly uses rope, but straps or a harness of sorts may also be used, today i am using lace cord, so all types of cord can be used. It can be tied over clothing or directly onto the skin, and can be worn under clothing or in full view. i have been wearing mine underneath my clothes today and well all i can say is WOW i love it....smiles...the feel of it rubbing against you as you stretch, sit, bend...delicious and there is a 'hot little knot on a certain little spot' which is doubly delicious!!!! maybe mine isnt to the standard as this one (though it isnt far off!!).. but it certainly does the trick...and to finally be in some type of bondage, i just love bondage and now to actually wear it, and go about day to day stuff wearing it feels naughty and absolutely amazing especially when its worn for someone special...smiles
There is such a sense of tease along with denial, the sweet torturous pleasure of denial, if one can call it sweet...smiles....but there is something beautiful i feel to give up the pleasure of orgasm to One, for them to Own that pleasure and how it is brought more into focus than when wearing a crotch rope, it totally reminds you that not everything belongs to you anymore!!!!
Wednesday, 4 July 2012
Salutation to the Dawn - Kalidasa
Look to this day!
For it is life, the very life of life
In its brief course
Lie all the verities and realities of your existence:
the bliss of growth
the glory of action
the splendour of achievement
For yesterday is but a dream
And tomorrow is only a vision
But today well lived makes yesterday a dream of happiness
And every tomorrow a vision of hope
Look well, therefore, to this day
Such is the salutation to the dawn