A brief update .....yyaayy this girl hasnt lost it at all...smiles...her mojo hadnt left her, it had just hid away....smiling
Master took this girl in hand and we had an intense training session last weekend, and it was what this girl needed...sighs...Master is an expert on tit torture and well i am still coming to terms with loving the pain, His pain, so last weekend He really pushed me, pushed me way beyond what i have ever done before, His tits were a beautiful colour of red with the blood trapped in them because of the bungee cords, then the clover clamps were put on...hate those nasty little buggers, then the clothes pegs were put on at the same time, Master then had me flog the pegs off with the flogger and when they didnt come off at the one swipe then clung to His nipples with an such an intensity of grip...had to really flog those little suckers...laughs and all the while Master was doing what He does best i had to use the wire whip (wire coat hanger) on His ass....lets just say that sub space was amazing after this. This is what His girl needed and its amazing how i am feeling now, i am feeling my true self again, i feel contentment in my life with Him again, i am so glad that this happened when it did, it was like a wake up call to the B/both of U/us.
Master found a great article for me to write a report on it was about slavery and i was to incorporate my interpretation of what slavery means to me, which i really enjoyed doing, the article was a great read, little things that one doesnt think about unless you are in a 24/7 relationship, but can also be incorporated into LDRs, it gave U/us food for thought. Here is the link if you would like to read it. http://www.enslavement.org.uk/soyouwant
so its all good again with U/us, i learnt a lot of lessons, the main one to be more open with Master which i thought i was and that it is His decision alone not my decision on what i think He should know. There are still problems in my vanilla world but i am well focused again on being true to who and what i am.