Monday, 23 July 2012
(mine wasnt as good as this one)
i dont have a lot of experience with pain, something that was never on my radar when it came to my submission, my biggest thrill from my previous relationship was complete control over me, but no matter how much i pushed for this it didnt really happen for me, all one sided on my part...but we learn by these mistakes.
But since i have been with Master He has taught this girl to embrace pain, to embrace the delicious feeling one gets from marking oneself...smiles...never ever in a million years did i think that i would ever do this, would ever get to experience subspace through this, but i have with Him...He is absolutely wonderful and wicked with it...laughs
He has been introducing little things for me to try which involves pain, small steps and i really do admire any slave that can accept the pain that is inflicted on them from their Master's, true masochists...well i am just starting on that road and anything that i have done to date is mild compared to what they do but its major to me..and Master is very proud of His girl for this...smiles.
So i just wanted to mention a little task i had to do yesterday which involved thumb tacks, cardboard and inserting it into the cups of my bra....well you can imagine how nervous i was to wear something like this, but i have been craving some type of pain and Master thought it would be a good way to get this without drawing much attention to myself. So off i set and made it up.
it was like a scene out of blue peter (a childrens programme over this side of the schuck!!! which shows you how to make things...lol) got my cardboard and thumb tacks, i used toothpaste cardboard as it was the right length and put in around 10 thumb tacks in each piece and inserted it into my bra....boy did they pinch when going it and moving them around so it felt comfortable, if you can say that with pins digging into ones breasts...laughs
i thought i would only last a little while wearing this but actually i kept them in for over 3 hours (smug look on face...lol) and during that time i put pressure onto my breasts either through leaning on them or folding my arms so i could press them deeper into the breast tissue or just use my hands and push against them...looking at the little row of pins through my shirt and bra looked so sexy too...smiles..that feeling of pinching and hurting anytime i moved was amazing and i felt it constantly for the whole time...that brought my submission to the fore and i loved every moment of it.
the pain also of removing them and pulling some of the tacks out of the breast was quite painful too but such a beautiful row of little pin points were left in my breasts, Master loved seeing these and was very proud of His girl that she was wearing His mark...He insists she wears His mark as often as she can...and this girl loves to wear it also....so i was quite proud of those little marks and they are still there even if they are faint now...but i love them and so does Master...smiles
Master is so taken with them that He says they will be a regular occurance along with something else He has me do!!!! as well as have me make a bigger one which will cover more of the breast....delicious!!!...what a lucky slave i am...smiles.