Update on Me

Hi everyone

i know i havent been posting on my blog lately but i have been very very busy elsewhere ...lol.

i just want to say that i am enjoying this so much, Sir has been absolutely brilliant with me. He has been mentoring me for two weeks now and we have started from scratch basically. i cant believe what i have achieved in tasks, physical and written in the first week, i am proud of myself and Sir is proud of me also. He has commented and given me positive feedback on everything i have achieved and even when i partly failed on a certain written task, He explained what would have happened if that had of happened between a Master and his sub. We have a lot of discussion in our posts which is amazing.

We are very open and honest with each other, and He is very patient with me and allowing me time to express myself further. All i can say is 'what the hell was i doing all those years with someone else and not really gaining anything from it'. i have experienced so so much in such a short space of time, and this was how it should have been.

im am growing in confidence each time. i look forward to each and every task He sets for me, because im doing what is natural to me. i love it when He picks something out that i have written and tells me that 'i have summed it up nicely' about a particular piece i had to write, this tells me i am definitely moving in the right direction.

i panic at times 'oh my, will i have time to do this', but i do because i want to. He has so many ideas for tasks, some with a 'twinkle in his eye'...lol but i am loving every second of what i am doing, i cannot thank Him enough for sharing this with me.

my proudest achievements to date was an essay on submission which i thoroughly enjoyed doing and also pleasing Sir with everything that i have done. But mostly i am proud of myself for this and i just want to say that 'i love it'...lol. As Sir puts it, this is for me and my needs, how lovely is that as this lifestyle is mostly about the Dominants needs but He is putting mine first. ~smiles~

i hope to write more in my blog and share some more updates with you on a regular basis.

blossom xx

Punishment

i have often wondered what type of punishments Dominants give to their submissives when they felt they have been let down by them or whether they didnt feel they completed a task well enough.

When i was with my previous Master and because we were long distance often my punishment was to ignore me for whatever length of time he deemed necessary, obviously i didnt like this type of punishment at all, i didnt like the lonliness i felt being unable to speak to him on the phone, text or email, also remembering back i didnt have to do much to warrant such a punishment!!! probably suited his needs during those times.

So i would be interested to hear what other types of punishment Dominants have used, we all know about physical punishments, e.g. pegs etc but i would like to know more about what other type of mental punishments could be used.

Smiling inwardly and outwardly

i know i have had a bad few days with family stuff and i have had a bad few weeks with myself and submission, feeling lost and not having anyone to share it with. Well since before i started my blog i was writing to a Dom who gave me such great support during the time of the break-up between my Master and i. We have been corresponding every day since then, and He has been my rock. Well when He read my previous post on 'Lost' He wrote to me and said how sorry He was to hear how i was feeling as not long before that post i wrote to Him to tell Him how positive i was becoming. Well the long and short of it is that He has agreed to become my Mentor/Protector, to help me through the fog, to get to where i want to be and help me fulfil my goal of belonging to someone.

There may be some things i can share with you all on my blog obviously with His permission, but in the meantime W/we have a private blog where i can express all my fears, concerns, worries as well as all the positive things that will come out of this. i cant contain the excitement i am feeling and the gratitude i bestow on Him for taking me under His wing and guiding me through all this.

Colbie Caillat - Bubbly

I just found this song and i love it, lovely feel good song, hope you enjoy.

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Mood setting

Hi Guys

i was wondering if any of you set the mood when you are playing? Do you use music, photography etc when you wish to set the scene for your Dom or submissive. Or do you feel music could destroy the scene, that you may get carried away if you were being flogged? Or do you not use anything to set the mood and just let your emotions take over?

Im back

Hi All

was taking some time out, have had a very bad week due to a family illness and death, so obviously my mind has been elsewhere, but im making my way back.

blossom xx

Lost

Im feeling a bit lost at the moment, is there any point in carrying on with my submission when i cant share it with anyone special.