Am i losing my mojo!!!! i am struggling at the moment with my slavery to Master, a lot of things are and have been happening in my vanilla life that have hindered O/our training sessions, causing me to question my submission to Master. At the moment i am concerned only with how i am feeling, what i want to do, what i dont want to do, i am not taking into consideration any of Master's feelings, His needs, His wants at this moment in time. This morning Master instructed me to wear my tack bra and for the first time in the year W/we have been T/together i struggled with this instruction, i said to myself 'i dont want to wear this, if i dont wear it Master will never know'!!!! because W/we are in a LDR....wrong, wrong, wrong, i know this is so wrong but i had to fight with myself this morning to wear it and complete the task that was set me. i did wear it and have been wearing it all day, even as i write this i am wearing it, its like by wearing it still im compensating for the doubts that i am having. its like i have hit a brick wall!!!!, Master says W/we will get back on track, but i cant just turn it back on, im not in that frame of mind. Has it been all that is happening in my vanilla life that is impacting on me, i have dealt with things before and it has never interferred with my slavery to Master, i am very good at coping with things that are thrown at me, but not on this occasion....should i be feeling like this if my submission is deep within me...where has all my motivation gone???
i am not in my slavery mindset at all, what is happening to me!!! Master and i are still very happy and He is aware of how i am feeling and what my thoughts were today and W/we are dealing with this, He is very understanding and has been very supportive to me throughout what has been happening but i just wanted to know from others have they gone through something like this?, is it a passing phase?, were they able to get back on track again? do you have any helpful suggestions?
A Blossom of pinkness for blossom. .
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Monday, 24 December 2012
Happy Holidays
Merry Christmas to Everyone who has visited my little blog and a very happy and healthy 2013!!!!
Sunday, 23 December 2012
the Beast within....
how she craves the wicked kiss of His pain on her flesh
she wants to feed the Beast within Him
how she craves the caress of the sweet sting of the flogger on her body
she wants to feed the Beast within Him
how she craves to redden her pale skin with His mark
she wants to feed the Beast within Him
how she craves to feel His cock throb with each stroke on her skin
she wants to feed the Beast within Him
how she craves that her salted tears caress His rigid flesh as He feeds her
she wants to feed the Beast within Him
how she craves to feel Him pump His warm load into her mouth
she wants to feed the Beast within Him
how she craves to clean that rigid flesh when He has done with her
she wants to feed the Beast within Him
how she craves to feel His mouth raping kisses upon her lips
she wants to feed the Beast within Him
she craves Him , she needs Him, she wants Him, she feeds Him .......
Friday, 14 December 2012
so so sad
i am so so sorry to hear such horrible news this evening about those poor little children, so innocent, and yet their little lives and those that were there to look after them wiped out because of some maniac....my prayers and thoughts are with those families.
Saturday, 8 December 2012
Electrical Play
Now of course this girl knows that Master will have His girls safety at heart but at the same time this girl is of course a little anxious given that W/we are in an LDR and not having done anything like this before she was just wondering if any of you have done any Electrical Play using a TENS unit, she would be interested to know what any of her readers thought of this little item if they have used one in the past. Of course great care and a lot of reading will ensue before W/we actually try this out but this girl is a little curious to know how it feels, would others recommend this little machine or something else?
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